Dear Alex, Merry Christmas. I hope you are happy wherever you are. You probably are because you were just that kind of kid; you made the best of everything. But you deserve to be happy here, not there. Every day is hard but I think Christmas is the hardest. You were so happy. You loved this holiday. I remember every Christmas you were here. It’s just not the same without you. There are just too many memories. Even the way you opened your presents was amazing. Remember the Ritz crackers? You were so happy that we bought them because you loved them. That was the last Christmas I spent with you. I know this sounds stupid but I wanted to buy you Ritz crackers every Christmas. I saw your Lindt chocolate that you loved so much. I really wanted to buy it, but I could not because it was too hard. I woke up today hoping there would be a miracle and you would be here. As I can see, that did not happen. All I wanted was you for Christmas. I would give everything up to have you back. Everything is a reminder. Even as I am typing on my laptop, it reminds me of you, because if it was not for you I probably would not be typing on it. You taught me everything. You were here for me whenever I needed. You are just an amazing boy, an angel, who was put on earth and taken away too soon. I was looking forward to so many more Christmases with you. My angel, my pumpkin, I love you, you always told me to be strong, but I can’t, I miss you too much. Everyone told me that time will heal my pain, but hunny, I feel like the pain is getting worse because now I know you are never coming back. Well, I hope you have a nice Christmas with Jesus and everyone who is up there. And if you can hear me, please ask Jesus to send you back – your family needs you and misses you. But if you are happy, please let me know and I will look forward to the day I see you. I will always be here for your dad, mom, and sisters. I love you and you will always have a place in my heart that no one can take. Marilyn